If I had to describe myself concisely in just one word – other than short! – I’d probably choose introvert.
I’ve always been painfully shy, and more or less invisible in large groups, but much as people choose to list that as a flaw and something that I should improve, there’s nothing I like more than my own space and simply blending into the background. Honestly. An introvert isn’t someone who is wildly unpopular or socially inept, although I could probably say those are also personality traits of mine, introverts simply energise by being by themselves as opposed to surrounded by others.
More and more frequently, I’ve felt distant from my friends and the people I surround myself with on a day to day basis. There’s nothing that feels better than getting home, into my pyjamas and having a good few hours of down time to recharge before attempting work and getting on with things. I honestly feel so drained after spending more than an hour or two outside of my comfort zone, and find it fascinating how people work in such different ways. Most of my friends are social butterflies, to put it simply: work hard, play hard and do it all in abundance.
As a University student type, I’m always questioning my choices to just stay in on Drink the Bar Dry nights at the Student Union, to chill out on my own with Take Me Out instead of take myself out with the girls, or to blog and concentrate on my career path instead of crawl on a path of bars and clubs. It finally clicked the other week though – I shouldn’t have to pretend that I’m always out at clubs X, Y and Z, I’m perfectly content with a cup of coffee, plenty of blogs and Youtube videos lined up, or a good book. I’m fine with “talking” to people over Twitter and my blog instead of face-to-face, and there’s nothing better than getting to meet up with fellow, like-minded bloggers at events once in a while. This is just how I like to spend my time and energise and inspire myself.
I’ll probably hover over the Publish button for a while before you get to read this. It’s weird having so many people know who I am (or perhaps you wouldn’t recognise me in a sea of faces!) when I’ve become quite accustomed to blending in and being forgotten about altogether. My blog is a place to document things that I don’t necessarily get the chance to chat about in real life.
So hello Internet friends, please feel free to stay a while, and do share your thoughts on the introvert vs. extrovert business! What kind of person are you? Am I the only one who used to/still does feel awkward when their lack of social life becomes quite clear? ♥
If this post interested you, for a little further reading, Bee of Vivatramp has written an inspiring post about coping at University, while Ashleigh of ASHLLYD wrote a post about social anxiety and feeling out of place. Jade of A Little Lipstick has also posted a great post about her initial experiences at University.