Sundaze 228
Sunday’s here again, in all of its hazy sun-dappled glory.
Waking up on a Sunday somehow feels like the reset of the century.
Or of the week.
It’s been a few weeks since I last checked in here. Mostly because I’ve worried that there hasn’t been enough of note to share, certainly not in the landscape we find ourselves in. But a little time away from my favourite series means that I can really see the benefit of just discussing everyday moments. More than ever, I think it’s important to remember that we’re not invincible, nor are we digital objects floating around in the metasphere, as much as it may feel like it.
A few weeks of anxiety
For a few weeks now, I’ve been struggling with increasing anxious thoughts and crashing waves on feeling just that: anxious. It simmers somewhere in the middle of my chest, often moving to my gut, a shimmying reminder that I’m human, I have goals and real thoughts, I’m just not sure what to make of them.
Moreso than ever, I have no idea what I’m doing. Oftentimes I feel like I’m flailing hopelessly in a world that keeps on moving like a steady tide. But what am I even attempting to hold on to? I’m not sure. The fact that there’s no linear path for any of us is comforting and scary in equal measure. Sure, it eliminates the comparison trap… but only for a moment. I’m reminded regularly that it’s human nature to pit ourselves against our peers.
At the moment, my self-prescription for this bout of anxiety is threefold: exercise – to encourage those happy endorphins, talk – so the thoughts leave my brain, and sit in the feelings.
Newness at & Chai!
My sister and I have been working on & Chai behind the scenes, despite a slightly quieter season than we might have hoped for. Excitingly, we’ve just released a brand new collaboration with Be Messy Be Magic, and we’ve got lots in store for the coming months as well. Channelling our creativity into our small business is undeniably rewarding, and I’m always so happy to funnel more time into our little venture. That being said, we’re still a teensy bit worried about the impact that the current-and-imminent cost of living crisis might bring. Oh, this small biz ownership life!
The mundanities of everyday life
I suppose the overarching theme of life at the moment is the mundane. I’m quietly sifting through the everyday mundane: waking up, fixing breakfast, making my silly little to-do lists, walking our dog, working, refilling the water jug that never ever seems to stay full enough, plopping my keys back in their drawer for the umpteenth time in the day… Routine.
Sometimes, post-lockdown life isn’t rushing to be on twelve holidays and racing to get back to what things were in 2019. Because they’ll never be that way again. And, you know what? That’s a little delicious to think about.
