There’s a note in my bullet journal every Saturday reminding me to write my Sundaze post. And this morning, I felt anxious about doing so. How could I best document this week without it sounding like an absolute scramble? A tumultuous rollercoaster? But I suppose that’s what the last 52 instalments have been; a scramble, emotional, tumultuous. We’ve now had 52 official weekends of pandemic living and, oddly, I’m finally understanding my own rhythm and relationship with it. It’s a bit of a give-and-take relationship – more than I’ve had in previous ones! – and there’s many highs and lows. Honestly? It’s a bit of a grim milestone, isn’t it?

And this week, the highs have been high and the lows scraping rockbottom. I felt elated for getting back into a workout routine that works for me. (I basically do 45 minutes of Nike+ Training workouts and then 30 minutes on my RingFit, alongside little daily walks.) They help me destress, iron out my emotions, and sleep better. I also had a big presentation to… present… at my day job, which I smashed. So I felt very proud of myself! But then just a day later, news of the Atlanta shooting broke. It broke me. I penned some very quick thoughts on Wednesday morning, but it kinda sucks to have to keep pleading for Asians to be seen and treated as humans. It’s been a tough couple of days, and I’m grieving. There’s a special sort of kinship amongst the ESEA community; we see and value one another as brothers and sisters, aunties and uncles. As such, I’ve taken my foot off the pedal a little and I’ve mostly spent my week offline, with family.

Feeling content

One of the most beautiful things in (my) life is that I’ve truly only ever known a life where racism exists alongside my everyday life. So, I have actually felt content this week, before and in-between the grief and heartache. Content that life in my thirties feels serene and inevitable, like water running down a brook. Content with the opportunities and things at my fingertips. Content with the beyond incredible support network I have around me. For instance, when I felt incredibly low on Wednesday, it didn’t take more than two seconds for my best friend to call me, and call again a few hours later, and then scoop me up for a long after-work walk. Amidst the sadness, I’m so grateful for this life that I’ve cultivated.

Welcoming spring

Yesterday marked the first day of spring 2021! … okay okay, the skies were grey all day. But still, I managed to head for a walk and it felt so good to embrace the fresh air and consider all that’s to come this year (hopefully). Fewer restrictions, the thought of getting to see my girls, a vaccine, sunny afternoons on fields. We sketched out plans for all that’s to come, and dug hands in pockets – for it was still chilly – and savoured this moment too.

Links I’ve Loved

  1. Rebecca’s blog is a long-term favourite of mine, and I really enjoyed reading about how she’s keeping her mental health in check right now.
  2. Although home ownership seems further away from me than ever before right now, I loved this post by Cindy about her gorgeous new shelves.
  3. I, of course, love supporting fellow Etsy shop owners. Lily’s shared 10 of her favourite spring finds from Etsy.
  4. Hate Has No Home Here: Fighting AAPI Racism in America via The Everygirl
  5. As the end of lockdown restrictions in England draw closer, here are 10 of the best book lovers’ spots to visit in nearby Edinburgh.
  6. It’s The Hope That Hurts via Simple & Season

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